just when the clock ticked 0001

few hours before my birthday, I was so sleepy. my sisters baked macaroni cheese and I could actually smell it from my room and seriously, it smells so good. the thing is, I was so tired (I blame my work cos I had to wake up early and the whether - its been raining cats and dogs). I was a lil bit sad as well, I mean I wanted to celebrate my birthday with my man, but we're in this thing called LDR, how on earth la kan?

as the clock ticked 0001, Yap called. I was a lil bit blur, so I picked up the call just to listen to someone playing the guitar and sang happy birthday song. Awww. Terus celik.

He told me to get on skype and there is he, smiling with guitar. He even sang my fave song, ku ingin kamu by romance. terharu... He promised that we would celebrate my birthday when we see each other later :)



Well I seriously thought thats it. but I received something from him yesterday. maybe its not the most expensive gift or something that a boyfriend would give to a girlfriend. Still, it made my day and I'm thankful to have you as my man. for more to come, love. Cheers! ;)

I'm 22

I just turned 22 few days ago and all I can say is, I'm blessed that I'm finally 22. This year has taught me many things that I never thought I would embrace, I got closer to new friends, became more aware of all those relationship myths between friends/family and fell in love with this one amazing guy I never expected I would like him the way I like him now hehe. In short, being 22 is awesome! (really??!)

I celebrated my birthday by jumping out of my bed and rushing straight to the bathroom. I was late to work. I teached from 8 - 11 am and when I got home, then only I had my breakfast. Mom cooked nasi ayam special specially for me, and she even woke up at 6 cos she wanted me to have my meal before work. sigh! Its the end of 2010 and still, I have problem with time management. ishish.

next, I went to my nenek's house with mom, dad and angah. we'll be having family gathering later in the evening so we decided that we should clean the house beforehand. Rushed back home, mandi2. I took a nap for 15 mins (I was so sleepy, I'll tell you why later). we went back to nenek's house after asar and I had fun reuniting with the cousins and relatives. we had satay sponsored by one of the uncles. mom said it was some sort of celebration for my birthday as well. lol. before we got home, we stopped at this kopitiam and had some drinks. chit chat with the whole family.

so basically. this is how I celebrated my 22nd birthday. very low-key with a close knit family ties. I feel so mature and blessed :)

Recently

What I have done for the past few weeks;

i) Singapore, Janda Baik, Kuantan, KT Trip
ii) Balik kampung (JB & Parit Buntaq)
iii) Cousins' visit (click for pictures and stories) Thanks Lu Ayy for the write up and piccas! ya know im so lazy hehe ;p
iv) Part-time job (Tuition teacher yo!) but I haven't got my pay yet!
v) Last but not least; movie marathons, more time with GG and Glee! lovelove

So basically, I am waiting for the posting! lems okay! its not that I can't wait to work, its just that I want to be sure of where I am gonna be posted to *prays hard* ;)

Thats all! malas nak tulis :D

Que Sera Sera

we often grew up thinking that if someone really loves you, he or she would risk anything just to be with you. well, all least these are the examples shown in laila majnun, aladdin and those crappy movies, either local or international (just saying a few). We see how a woman would left his family behind just for love or man to be blinded by lust in which he thinks its real love.
I admit, it gets to me sometimes as I partly one of the believers. What I didnt realised is que sera sera. Whatever will be, will be. I do believe in fate and I believe that if things are meant to be, it will happen no matter what. We might plan thing, but its really not in our hands. :)

12th December 2009

It has been one year since I left Sydney.

And honestly, I am missing the surrounding, the people, the bus, the train, Macquarie University,the library, the lectures, the tutorials, MUV, the makan makan we had as a group of Malaysian, the random karaoke everytime we celebrated friends' birthday, my rajinness and passion in cooking (balik msia, hilang terus semangat ni), ayam penyet in chatswood, shopping along George St., SUPRE, VALLEYGIRL, GLASSONS (thank God we have Cotton On here in malaysia), Max Brenner, Lindt Cafe (awesome sangat), walk along Darling Harbour, seafood platter at Sydney Fish Market, golek2 atas rumput at Opera House, solat atas padang dan di mana sahaja :) and many more.

My graduation in Sydney will be on April 20th 2011. I realllllllly want to go. Hopefully I can make it come true.

Rindu sangat okay!

you dont have to let the girl out to be a woman

judging from my parents' experience in handling their own relationship, I must say, it's not easy. my mom is always the talkative one, while my dad is kinda the opposite. If we argued among sibs or did something wrong, its always my mom who gets angry. My dad is the cooler one. thats what happened in their relationship as well, when one side gets angry or furious, the other should never ever do the same. You gotta take turn. If one side talk, talk and talk, the other side should just listen. Same goes to my relationship. I've always been the angry one. I easily blame my partner if something goes wrong. Well its not how you deal in a relationshp. I wanted this to last long, I really do. Thus I'm willing to change and I must say , as what i've observed from my parents, it will never get easy. At least Im willing to try.

Lazy Bum

I initially wanted to update about two vacay;
a) Singapore aka The 'Fine' City 2010
b) Cuti-cuti Malaysia

but I am so plain lazy!! nak transfer gambar pon malas.

ishishishsisish

but I promise I will!! sooner or later

toodles!

How To Style Your Hijabs

As we all know, there's a lot of styles that we can do with our hijabs. I've been learning how to do those styles from hana tajima's and amenakin's videos. At first I thought it would be kinda complicated but it is actually quite easy peasy. So, here it is!! TADAA!! my gedik poses ya'll!

a) Lycra Tudung
- bought this at Jalan TAR (so far I only have 3 colours - BLACK, MUSTARD YELLOW and GREY)



- You can also style it with headbands (sadly, I only have one)


b) Long Pashmina
- my mom posted this to Sydney for my hari raya celebration. Da lama tak pakai cos the material is quite thick (so kadang2 nampak macam sakit beguk sikit). Tapi sekarang tidak lagi, since I've tried to style it differently.



c) Short Pashmina
- got this tie dye hijab from Just Jeans, OZ! sukaaaaaaa gilos but I rarely wear it now. I think this kinda look reminds everyone of Yuna aite? The material is very light and its comfy!



d) Tassel Tudung
- also known as 'Tudung Gypsy/Tudung dgn subang). One of my faves these days! You dont have to iron it and its veryyy simple. Love 'em!



Thats all! Do not be afraid to try out different styles okay! Wearing hijabs should not be an excuse for us to look as fashionable (but in modest way) as others. ;)

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Big fight.
Big time.
Yet no winner or loser.
How ironic.
Talk to me.
Cry me a river
Undecided.
Decided.
Egoistic.
Love is all around, still. I want you, you want me.

Extra miles you go for

LOVE? Mine is 240 kms ;D

Well. I had a blast weekend last week. Perfect weekend with perfect company :) I promised Yap that I would go to Kuantan, so I finally made it last Friday. Asked kya to accompany me since she's going back to Kuantan as well. Was pretty nervous, coz that would probably be my first time driving to Kuantan. And I never drive that far, yet. Alhamdulillah, everything went smooth and well. I maintained 120-140 km haha. Dah half way baru Yap nak bagitau yang kene hati hati dengan bridge along the highway. I was like, pfff. And right now I'm actually pretty nervous. SUMMONES!! They could come anytime. Haihs.

Anyways, arrived in Kuantan around 3 sth. I saw UMP Gambang, I was so excited haha. I even took a turn and snapped the picture. Jakun. Ohh the hostel looks like rumah kedai. Funny.

Anyhoo, called Yap and he said he was on his way to the Terminal since we will be meeting there. Nua, kya's husband was already at the Stadium and I was sooo hungry, I could not wait for the late person so I had my nasi goreng kampung. Kya ate as well, but guess what. By the time I finished my meal, she was still eating. Told ya, I was starving! hehe

And then jeng jeng, ketibaan duli yang maha mulia Yap Ah Loy. Omg, he looks so emm bald. abang botak abang botak di tepi jale. ;p

Bid goodbye to the lovely couple (Nua n Kya) and Yap left his car at the terminal. Since I was complaining how oily and belengas I looked (its true!), Yap drove me to a mosque to get myself refreshed. Performed prayers and then we're off to TC. I've never been to TC (first time lalu je) and we jalan jalan for a while. Owh rupanya TC ade laluan tuuu. Jakun lagi. Overall, I think its a very nice place (kembang hidung Yap). Perhaps it needs more maintenance. Some of the handles are falling off and such. Snap snap snap then we're off to Kompleks and ECM. Wanted to catch a movie but yours truly was being a child (so me anyway!). I was dead tired (sleep late a day before + woke up early + drove 240 kms), super hungry and super sad cos there's no Dinner for Schmucks! :(( Oh yea, I was merajuk as well. Haha was feeling guilty cos I know someone is super busy with his PSM/FYP yet he finds time to entertain me.

He definitely knows how to entertain me. By filling my stomach with good food!! went to Tg Lumpur, which the people claimed as port makan seafood terbaek. We had our meals but unfortunately the cook forgot about our ikan aji2. Yap chose the fish but since we've almost finished with our meals, we just cancelled the order. Maybe next time bole try? We talked about many things. Ohh and I saw a very cute toodler behind me. So cute rase nak cubit2 je. Yap drove back to Pekan and he dropped me at his female friends' house. I slept like a baby on our way to Pekan. I tried not to but my eyes felt so heavy. ishish. thats the end of Day 1

Yap woke me up for Day 2 and told me that we could go out a bit late. As usual, continued sleeping after his call (hehe) but then Pikok and the girls asked me to reverse my car since they were going somewhere so early in the morning. With my mamai face, I reversed my car and salam2 bye2 with them. Thought of sambung tido but then I should just iron or kemas my car a bit. Yap called and said we're going to the beach for breakfast. I seriously thought we were going to find kedai makan tepi pantai and thats it. But look what this boy planned on his mind? Suprised me with his nasi goreng sardine special and a guitar. Picnic with my lovely boyfriend :) Well the guitar was kinda expected cos I have been bugging him with it (He promised long time ago okay!) but the nasi goreng? No wonder he told me to continue sleeping this morning, he was being busy in the kitchen. awww!

We ate, talked and we sang along to the songs (more like he sang alone!). Pretty romantic, aye? haha. It was so hot at the beach (Jue, its pantai lagenda pekan) and I could not tahan anymore so we're off to his house (of cos I waited outside). He settled few stuff and then we're off to KB. Yap brought me to Cherating (my first time also!) and we had air Nyo. On our way back to KB, we dropped by at the Mesra Mall. Jealous gile kot. I want a mall like this in KB. It was a nice, cosy mall and it has everything. From TMC to bowling to movie to karaoke. Everythings under one roof. jealousyyy is rising. hehe

What I love the most about this road trip is well, we get the chance to talk. Sometimes when he came to KL, we would go to the mall and I would definitely cuci mata. Tengok baju and stuff. Distraction ;p Thus during this roadtrip, I learned a lot more about him. Get to know his friends, get to know his place. And I could tell he was practically nervous driving me back to KB. I know its a bit too early but its not a meeting the parents yet! It was more like he's sending me back home. Plus papa was in kampungku so he only met umi. I would love to bring him to KB again, but not soon.

And my sister, Baby loves him. She was like, Along kalau tak kawen dgn abang Yap, bagi la kat Baby. Baby sukaaaa! oh well, thats my 10 year old sister I'm talking about. We arrived in KB around 9 sth and we dropped at my house. Introduced Yap to my mom :) and asked Baby whether she wants to tag along. Obviously this kiddo said Yes!. Yap wanted to go back on the same day (pujukan 2 hari tak menjadi ;( ) but its okay cos I know he has plenty of work to be done. He was willing to send me back to KB, thats was more than enough. Got his bus tix at Transnasional and we had dinner at the Stadium. Urgh cam takbest je makan kat stadium but since it was quite late and he might missed his bus, so bawak makan dekat2 je. Baby could get along with Yap quite well, its not a suprise. hehe. Yap fulfilled his promise to Baby, he belanja Vitagen. so cute.

10 something pm, time to bid goodbye. I could not even look, or I would get all teary eyed. So me okay. Everytime Yap nak balik camtu lah. Saying goodbye is always the hardest, but I know we will meet again right, love?

So that marks the end of my weekend. Short but wonderful. Isnt it perfect?

what I want to do

next year, 2011: work (full time and part time), to love my job, save money, to be able to make my family happy, to be able to pay for my own bills, survey any opportunities to further my studies and apply whenever I'm ready, grad in Sydney with parents or sistas, CONVOCATION!, to cherish whatever I have and make it last long :)

Next 2 years, 2012: work(full time and part time), save money, save money, SAVE money, get ready to settle down and hopefully I have found the right one by then, to have a vacation with my girls (jue, jaa, amoyy, yann, trah, naimah), to be able to invest for something beneficial.

I know. I'm such a dreamer but who isn't?
Tanpa keberanian, mimpi takkan jadi kenyataan (movie quote)

him :)

we fight, we argue, we get mad, we cool down, we give each other silent treatment, we pokpek, we merajuk but at the end of the day we keep coming back to each other. it is just how we are.

A list

He, who: loves to eat, loves nasi goreng kg, loves adamaya, loves korean stuff, he's honest but not innocent, he loves to tease, he's smoker (quit already since 22nd may 10), he's 184.9 with 67 kg, he's lembut hati kinda person, he's the first boy in his family, he has a sister n a brother n a mum, his father passed away 10 years ago due to accident, he is the family man anyway, he's corny aka mat jiwang haha n loves to use shortform in texting, he doesnt like being angry, he's hot n cold type of person, he is fb addict, he can play guitar or gitat :p, he has cool friends, first song he dedicates, hijau daun - suara ku berharap,sumtimes he calls me sayang n dear or his girl/gadis :), he's too nice with girls stimes, he says it is bcuz girls think he is sombong (hmmph), he's cool, he's my tmi guy, he can be really stubborn at times(?), he loves to tease or perli me kadang2, he likes to mandi kobau hehe, whatever happens, he wants me to know that he loves me so much aww tho he makes me cry stimes, I really like being with him, he's not that expressive, stimes I have to give him hintsss but its okay, first movie - inception, 2nd movie-despicable me, 3rd movie-slice, he has a lovely voice lols, he loves using smileys in his texts hmm dunno why, he plays futsal, follows epl n loves sleeping way too much, I love talking to him, sharing each other stories, he doesnt know this but I think he's a bit manja for his age hehe but I like it stimes, I think he looks superb when he's smiling :) but I dunno why I like to merajuk a lot lately ;( He is my bf since 120710, He is muhammad ashraf ali zubir aka yap aka my love ;))) im so in love and still very much in love with you!

ps: I wrote this as a note in my phone. whenever I found out something new bout him, or it could be just anything, I come back to this note, read it and edit anything necessary. Somehow, this list reminds me why he's the one for me.

9th August 2010 :(

When the tragedy happened
:(
Lodged a police report, claimed insurance, consulted Perodua
The car is still in ICU right now
Should be okay by end of next week
Hopefully.

ps: damn you lorry pasir! haish

life is a breeze atm :)

be glad of life, because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars;
to be satisfied with your possessions;
to despise nothing in the world except falsehood and meanness,
and to fear nothing except cowardice; to be governed by your admirations rather than by your disgusts;
to covert nothing that is your neighbors's except his kindness of heart and gentleness of manners;
to think seldom of your enemies, often of your friends..
and to spend as much time as you can, with body and with spirit.
these are little guideposts on the footpath to peace - henry van dyke

12th July

• marks my father's bday :)

and

• :))

hehehe

thats all

I love it when a plan comes together

I watched 'The A-Team' with my friends yesterday, and suprisingly, I loved it! I mean, I was clueless when the others suggested that they wanna watch the movie. First and foremost, it is an action movie, and I was never a fan of one. Secondly, I seriously had no idea about the movie. Never heard of it. Never read any reviews of the movie. At all! To be honest, I even thought the title was 'The Eighteen'. No wonder I could not find any movie poster entitled 'The Eighteen'!

=.="

hahahaha.

watch the movie if you haven't watch it! seriously wicked and funny! :D

thats all.

Unbelievable

It's 3.47 am in the morning, I just woke up and having trouble to continue sleeping (despite the heavy rains outside). So, I want to share something that I find out today.

My younger sister, Baby is currently schooling at this one school, located near to my parents' workplace and the school is known to have many other staffs' children there. Earlier this week, a doctor cum one of those parents sent an email to the other staffs whose children are schooling at the same school, as she said that there is an urgent matter need to be discussed.

So, my mum attended the meeting and broke the news when she came back. The issue of the meeting is regarding the children's safety, as it is reported that a nine year old boy has been sexually abuse by a stranger inside the school's toilet. The stranger, who is believed a drug addict had even tied the kid's hands and cellotaped his mouth so that he cannot called for help. The poor kid was finally saved by his friend, who saw the man outside of the toilet, but its too late already.

Omaigad!!! I was so shocked, how could this cruel incident happened, without single notice from the other teachers or the guards/adults and most importantly, occured at the school compound. A place once we thought is safe.

Joining the rest who are so worried about the children, my parents do feel the same for my sister. Knowing her, I know she's the brave type. She would not be scared to go to the toilet alone, thus my mum has warned her not to. At least ask her friend to tag along. Funny thing is, baby told us there is such thing as no one can go to the toilet with friends. I do understand the rationale for teachers setting up this kinda rule (been there, done that) but I believe it is crucial for the kids to have someone else when they go to anywhere. After all they are just kids, who obviously could not protect themselves if something bad happened.

Mum even asked me to tag along for the school meeting this coming Tuesday. She said it might be useful, as I am a teacher-to-be myself. I agreed, and let see whats gonna happen at the meeting.

I swear I would not pick up baby late from school. I don't want anything bad happen to her, and other kids as well. And I really hope the abusive guy would be arrested and receive punishment for what he did. Whatever it is, it would never be enough. The poor boy might suffer physically and most importantly, his unstable emotional state. Plus, the impact of the incident might be severe, and the kid seriously needs a lot of support to get through this, especially considering the fact he is very young and vulnerable.

Whoever the abusive guy is, I hope you rot in hell!!! You are seriously sick!

I'll update more about the meeting soon.

I'm officially very sad. Unbelievable.

Tough luck on being a teacher as well.

Thats all.

Weddings

or in Kelantanese, it is known as 'Makey gulai'

It's school hols, and as expected there's tonnes of wedding invitations. Weddings mean nasi minyak, gulai kawah, ayam masak merah, dalca, sambal, bubur and other awesome foods. Awesome foods equal to fatness.

Gahhh. =.="

Whatever it is, I love attending kenduri kahwin. ;)

The thing is, as told in previous post, I went to several states in utagha for vacation with dear family, so I missed Choc's wedding. Honestly, I feel so sad cuz I could not attended her wedding, since I was there when she got engaged and the most important thing, she's kelantanese friend. Ralat ;( What to do aite? Nevermind, I am planning to visit her before I go back to KL and give her wedding present.

Yesterday, I went for Ore and MadJack's kenduri in KB with other friends. They got married in February, but then the 'bekwoh' was held yesterday at Taman Sari, KB. Joe, Sani, and Acap, together with the other two girls who are Ore's schoolmates arrived in KB at noon. I've to pick up Basir at his house but then the traffic was so bad, the cars were hardly moving. It was expected anyway, its saturday and KB is always packed with people from other states during school hols. While searching for the location, Basir and I was alarmed with one embarassing fact; We, the KB people did not know where the hell is Taman Sari!! Dang, malu wey! Both of us didn't have the card, and I only received a sms forwarded from Sani stating the house address. Tapi takde location. Peluh2 wey, Basir even called her mom and tadaa, we finally arrived. Found out the ganung people were there already, happily eating nasi mintak. Isk, maluuuu! Oh, I even met Faris there. what a suprise! never thought he would come down to KB. He's going back later in the evening.

Next, I planned to bring them to PCB, but then Joe wanted to go to Rantau Panjang. It's okay, we can go there but it is assured that the traffic would be hell. Found out that he wanted to buy beras 'Serindit' aka beras siam (illegal!). Rupanya, beras tu ade jual dekat rumah Basir. FUhh. Before we went back, took pictures with the pengantins. They looked so happy, am happy for them :)

Oh, umi told me to pick up baby from tuition. I was like, takkan nak bawak budak kecik banyok mulut niiii. But then, I didn't bring the house key so yeah bring her along lah. And Baby being the usual talkative sister, she mixed up with my friends pretty well. She even called them names; Joe jadik JOJO cite bella, Sani jadi SUNNY as in hot, Acap jadik ASAP, yaya jadi YAYAH yg the famous kids' author tu, BIE jadi kak BABY. Ishishish, but towards the end, she didn't talked that much dah, bet she's tired. lols.

Arrived at home around 7.30 pm, and angah asked me to be her driver (since kancil tak kua icu lagi) and accompanied her for her friend's bro akad nikah at masjid jalan bayam after isyak. I was like so tired, but she kept on budging me to bring her there. Somehow, I knew her friend as well, her late mum was admitted to husm from hospital melaka bcuz of breast cancer. Since they did not know anyone in kelate, my family has been their regular visitor and helped them if they needed anything back then. Good to see her again anyway. She seems happy now, and she's about to get a new mum. :)

For today, I just got back from bekwoh as well in Pengkalan Chepa. makey gulai lagii! On our way back, umi shared her bekwoh fantasy. Not that she's putting pressure on me. I think, she's just explaining what kinda bekwoh would she prefer. Lols! Not gonna happen soon, umi. ;p

Oh well, pretty lengthy post on weddings.

I'll upload the piccas later. haven't transferred them yet!

Thats all.

Bad dreams

Initially I wanted to share stories about my recent trip to utagha, but Im not in the mood right now. ;(

For those who know me, I am one of those who are lucky, cuz basically I rarely have troubles with sleeping. In short, letak kepala je mesti zzzzzz lah. Confirm!

But last nite was a bit weird. First, I couldn't sleep. I tried though. Plus, my family and I just got back from dinner, I was full and sleepy. Went into my room, did my usual stuff first then tros zzzz. Mind you, this is the after effect of full stomach. ;)

However, last nite was a bit different. I could not sleep well. I had really bad dreams. It's like I'm having the same dreams over and over again. I could still remember the dreams vividly. I must say, it was kinda scary. I dreamt about killing and killer. Don't ask me who are those people in my dreams, I could not remember their faces.

Gosh, it was scary. I woke up around 2 sth and tried to continue sleeping but I just can't. I switched on the light and ended reading the magazine instead. I thought I would feel sleepy, cuz you know, they say if you can't sleep, get something to read and automatically you would feel sleepy but guess what, it did not work! haish. Then, I just lied in my bed, still trying to sleep well but my plans failed.

I woke up around 4 sth for sahur since I've been planning to fast with angah. Woke her up, and found out adek is not yet sleeping. WEH ASAL TAK CAKAP!!! I thought I was the only one who are not yet asleep ishishish.

Well, basically that was what happened last night. Hope I could get a good night sleep tonite. Tomorrow is gotong royong day with la familia.

thats all.

ps; I even tried to call Yap, but he didn't picked up. ;'(

For every ending there's a new beginning

Yeah, you heard it right. I'm back! Hello blogspot. Well, I used to have an old blog (alia-ness.blogspot.com). I still have it btw, but the blog was closed about a year ago due to irrelevant content *lols*. Truth is, I feel embarassed to let anyone read stuff I wrote a year ago, but due to sentimental reason, I decided I should keep the blog. Only to myself. :)

I started tumblr about a year ago as well. But! Tumblr is not really my cup of tea I guess. I still update anything over there and recently I found out I could not access my tumblr account due to password problem. Damn aite? I know. :'(

So yeah I'm back with blogspot. Cuz I've been wanting to express my thoughts and stuff like that. I've been resorting to twitter but 160 characters is just not enough. ;p I don't expect anyone to find this anyway, but just in case you ter-jumpa this blog, warm greetings from me. hello!

What's new about me? Nothing much I guess. Basically I am almost done with my studies and it's approaching towards the end (insyaAllah). I am now left with my final semester (practicum) and I really hope everything would just go as planned (amin!). At the same time I feel sad. Cuz that means I'm getting closer to working life and more responsibilities as a young adult.

Umi has been talking about me giving her money from my salary. he he ;P
Papa, who has been paying for my car every month said that once I get my own salary, Im gonna be the one who would continue paying and thats it. ;P
My sistas? I have to belanja these kiddos once in a while aite?
Myself? Obviously I have to buy necessities and stuff like that. And shopping! Teachers need at least two bajus per month haha but that depends anyway.

And I really should start saving. They say, you should save 10 percent from your salary for more to come in future - marriage (?), emergency.

I am currently single. But its quite a complicated relationship lols. anyways, Im hoping to get married in 2-3 years. Let see whether this one would be accomplished according to its target or not lols.

Responsibilities. As much as I hate the word, that is exactly what I (and others) need to grow up.

Thats it. :)