In 3 Days

And I'll be someone else's wife Semoga segala urusan dipermudahkan olehNya, Amin.

my oh my. another accident?

yes you heard it right.
I met with another accident (my friends said closing accident for 2010). Grr. It happened when my singaporean cousins came for a visit in Kota Bharu and I was supposed to be their tourist guide.

Everything went well at first, we even joked around in the car, humming to the songs on the radio and Lu Ayy took few videos which includes me introducing my car Ali. Look at the video, I was excited!



Suddenly, on our way back, a driver who did not noticed my car cos he was too busy sms-ing hit Ali! BOOM! Details of the story would not be spared here cos it had been settled now. Alhamdulillah, the other driver admitted his mistake and he paid for my damage. Thank God for that.

well, this video was taken after the accident. I was sad and mad (as said by Baby). Totally killed my mood. Dari happy pagi2 terus downnnn! :(



Funny thing is, siap kecek kelate! hehe

Moral of the story, always always be careful on the road. DO NOT SMS OR USE YOUR PHONE (relates to me well). I might could have avoided the accident if I concentrated more on the surrounding. So yeah, be careful and remember its not only you in the car. There's always other people and their lives matter, just like yours.

what a bittersweet memories to end 2010.

Jiwang side of me

dear Mr You-Know-Who-You-Are,
this song is for you.

xx

It makes me happy, just to listen to her soothing voice and honest lyrics.
Perfect song to start your morning, yay?

2011

My first post for the new year - 2011. I know, boo me cos I'm so preoccupied with holidays. I wanted to write earlier but hey, better late than never. At least, it is still January ;p. so yeah, Happy New Year! May the year be filled with joy, happiness and good luck for everyone.

I just can't wait to start working even though I'm not sure of where I'm gonna be posted yet. Few friends got SABAH! But I think working is already a challenging stage itself, its not the places that matter most. As long as you have passion in whatever you're doing, you'll be fine.

Cant believe this actually comes from me. My boyfriend and family would be laughing their hearts out once they read this. I was the one who almost cried and freaked out when I heard those who got SABAH did not actually include sabah in their options. =.="

Its okay. Sure hope for the best. InsyaAllah :)

As quoted from Ramez Sasson, "Happy thoughts fill you with happiness"

The best thing that I could do now is waiting. Its painful though.

just when the clock ticked 0001

few hours before my birthday, I was so sleepy. my sisters baked macaroni cheese and I could actually smell it from my room and seriously, it smells so good. the thing is, I was so tired (I blame my work cos I had to wake up early and the whether - its been raining cats and dogs). I was a lil bit sad as well, I mean I wanted to celebrate my birthday with my man, but we're in this thing called LDR, how on earth la kan?

as the clock ticked 0001, Yap called. I was a lil bit blur, so I picked up the call just to listen to someone playing the guitar and sang happy birthday song. Awww. Terus celik.

He told me to get on skype and there is he, smiling with guitar. He even sang my fave song, ku ingin kamu by romance. terharu... He promised that we would celebrate my birthday when we see each other later :)



Well I seriously thought thats it. but I received something from him yesterday. maybe its not the most expensive gift or something that a boyfriend would give to a girlfriend. Still, it made my day and I'm thankful to have you as my man. for more to come, love. Cheers! ;)

I'm 22

I just turned 22 few days ago and all I can say is, I'm blessed that I'm finally 22. This year has taught me many things that I never thought I would embrace, I got closer to new friends, became more aware of all those relationship myths between friends/family and fell in love with this one amazing guy I never expected I would like him the way I like him now hehe. In short, being 22 is awesome! (really??!)

I celebrated my birthday by jumping out of my bed and rushing straight to the bathroom. I was late to work. I teached from 8 - 11 am and when I got home, then only I had my breakfast. Mom cooked nasi ayam special specially for me, and she even woke up at 6 cos she wanted me to have my meal before work. sigh! Its the end of 2010 and still, I have problem with time management. ishish.

next, I went to my nenek's house with mom, dad and angah. we'll be having family gathering later in the evening so we decided that we should clean the house beforehand. Rushed back home, mandi2. I took a nap for 15 mins (I was so sleepy, I'll tell you why later). we went back to nenek's house after asar and I had fun reuniting with the cousins and relatives. we had satay sponsored by one of the uncles. mom said it was some sort of celebration for my birthday as well. lol. before we got home, we stopped at this kopitiam and had some drinks. chit chat with the whole family.

so basically. this is how I celebrated my 22nd birthday. very low-key with a close knit family ties. I feel so mature and blessed :)

Recently

What I have done for the past few weeks;

i) Singapore, Janda Baik, Kuantan, KT Trip
ii) Balik kampung (JB & Parit Buntaq)
iii) Cousins' visit (click for pictures and stories) Thanks Lu Ayy for the write up and piccas! ya know im so lazy hehe ;p
iv) Part-time job (Tuition teacher yo!) but I haven't got my pay yet!
v) Last but not least; movie marathons, more time with GG and Glee! lovelove

So basically, I am waiting for the posting! lems okay! its not that I can't wait to work, its just that I want to be sure of where I am gonna be posted to *prays hard* ;)

Thats all! malas nak tulis :D

Que Sera Sera

we often grew up thinking that if someone really loves you, he or she would risk anything just to be with you. well, all least these are the examples shown in laila majnun, aladdin and those crappy movies, either local or international (just saying a few). We see how a woman would left his family behind just for love or man to be blinded by lust in which he thinks its real love.
I admit, it gets to me sometimes as I partly one of the believers. What I didnt realised is que sera sera. Whatever will be, will be. I do believe in fate and I believe that if things are meant to be, it will happen no matter what. We might plan thing, but its really not in our hands. :)

12th December 2009

It has been one year since I left Sydney.

And honestly, I am missing the surrounding, the people, the bus, the train, Macquarie University,the library, the lectures, the tutorials, MUV, the makan makan we had as a group of Malaysian, the random karaoke everytime we celebrated friends' birthday, my rajinness and passion in cooking (balik msia, hilang terus semangat ni), ayam penyet in chatswood, shopping along George St., SUPRE, VALLEYGIRL, GLASSONS (thank God we have Cotton On here in malaysia), Max Brenner, Lindt Cafe (awesome sangat), walk along Darling Harbour, seafood platter at Sydney Fish Market, golek2 atas rumput at Opera House, solat atas padang dan di mana sahaja :) and many more.

My graduation in Sydney will be on April 20th 2011. I realllllllly want to go. Hopefully I can make it come true.

Rindu sangat okay!

you dont have to let the girl out to be a woman

judging from my parents' experience in handling their own relationship, I must say, it's not easy. my mom is always the talkative one, while my dad is kinda the opposite. If we argued among sibs or did something wrong, its always my mom who gets angry. My dad is the cooler one. thats what happened in their relationship as well, when one side gets angry or furious, the other should never ever do the same. You gotta take turn. If one side talk, talk and talk, the other side should just listen. Same goes to my relationship. I've always been the angry one. I easily blame my partner if something goes wrong. Well its not how you deal in a relationshp. I wanted this to last long, I really do. Thus I'm willing to change and I must say , as what i've observed from my parents, it will never get easy. At least Im willing to try.

Lazy Bum

I initially wanted to update about two vacay;
a) Singapore aka The 'Fine' City 2010
b) Cuti-cuti Malaysia

but I am so plain lazy!! nak transfer gambar pon malas.

ishishishsisish

but I promise I will!! sooner or later

toodles!

How To Style Your Hijabs

As we all know, there's a lot of styles that we can do with our hijabs. I've been learning how to do those styles from hana tajima's and amenakin's videos. At first I thought it would be kinda complicated but it is actually quite easy peasy. So, here it is!! TADAA!! my gedik poses ya'll!

a) Lycra Tudung
- bought this at Jalan TAR (so far I only have 3 colours - BLACK, MUSTARD YELLOW and GREY)



- You can also style it with headbands (sadly, I only have one)


b) Long Pashmina
- my mom posted this to Sydney for my hari raya celebration. Da lama tak pakai cos the material is quite thick (so kadang2 nampak macam sakit beguk sikit). Tapi sekarang tidak lagi, since I've tried to style it differently.



c) Short Pashmina
- got this tie dye hijab from Just Jeans, OZ! sukaaaaaaa gilos but I rarely wear it now. I think this kinda look reminds everyone of Yuna aite? The material is very light and its comfy!



d) Tassel Tudung
- also known as 'Tudung Gypsy/Tudung dgn subang). One of my faves these days! You dont have to iron it and its veryyy simple. Love 'em!



Thats all! Do not be afraid to try out different styles okay! Wearing hijabs should not be an excuse for us to look as fashionable (but in modest way) as others. ;)

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Big fight.
Big time.
Yet no winner or loser.
How ironic.
Talk to me.
Cry me a river
Undecided.
Decided.
Egoistic.
Love is all around, still. I want you, you want me.

Extra miles you go for

LOVE? Mine is 240 kms ;D

Well. I had a blast weekend last week. Perfect weekend with perfect company :) I promised Yap that I would go to Kuantan, so I finally made it last Friday. Asked kya to accompany me since she's going back to Kuantan as well. Was pretty nervous, coz that would probably be my first time driving to Kuantan. And I never drive that far, yet. Alhamdulillah, everything went smooth and well. I maintained 120-140 km haha. Dah half way baru Yap nak bagitau yang kene hati hati dengan bridge along the highway. I was like, pfff. And right now I'm actually pretty nervous. SUMMONES!! They could come anytime. Haihs.

Anyways, arrived in Kuantan around 3 sth. I saw UMP Gambang, I was so excited haha. I even took a turn and snapped the picture. Jakun. Ohh the hostel looks like rumah kedai. Funny.

Anyhoo, called Yap and he said he was on his way to the Terminal since we will be meeting there. Nua, kya's husband was already at the Stadium and I was sooo hungry, I could not wait for the late person so I had my nasi goreng kampung. Kya ate as well, but guess what. By the time I finished my meal, she was still eating. Told ya, I was starving! hehe

And then jeng jeng, ketibaan duli yang maha mulia Yap Ah Loy. Omg, he looks so emm bald. abang botak abang botak di tepi jale. ;p

Bid goodbye to the lovely couple (Nua n Kya) and Yap left his car at the terminal. Since I was complaining how oily and belengas I looked (its true!), Yap drove me to a mosque to get myself refreshed. Performed prayers and then we're off to TC. I've never been to TC (first time lalu je) and we jalan jalan for a while. Owh rupanya TC ade laluan tuuu. Jakun lagi. Overall, I think its a very nice place (kembang hidung Yap). Perhaps it needs more maintenance. Some of the handles are falling off and such. Snap snap snap then we're off to Kompleks and ECM. Wanted to catch a movie but yours truly was being a child (so me anyway!). I was dead tired (sleep late a day before + woke up early + drove 240 kms), super hungry and super sad cos there's no Dinner for Schmucks! :(( Oh yea, I was merajuk as well. Haha was feeling guilty cos I know someone is super busy with his PSM/FYP yet he finds time to entertain me.

He definitely knows how to entertain me. By filling my stomach with good food!! went to Tg Lumpur, which the people claimed as port makan seafood terbaek. We had our meals but unfortunately the cook forgot about our ikan aji2. Yap chose the fish but since we've almost finished with our meals, we just cancelled the order. Maybe next time bole try? We talked about many things. Ohh and I saw a very cute toodler behind me. So cute rase nak cubit2 je. Yap drove back to Pekan and he dropped me at his female friends' house. I slept like a baby on our way to Pekan. I tried not to but my eyes felt so heavy. ishish. thats the end of Day 1

Yap woke me up for Day 2 and told me that we could go out a bit late. As usual, continued sleeping after his call (hehe) but then Pikok and the girls asked me to reverse my car since they were going somewhere so early in the morning. With my mamai face, I reversed my car and salam2 bye2 with them. Thought of sambung tido but then I should just iron or kemas my car a bit. Yap called and said we're going to the beach for breakfast. I seriously thought we were going to find kedai makan tepi pantai and thats it. But look what this boy planned on his mind? Suprised me with his nasi goreng sardine special and a guitar. Picnic with my lovely boyfriend :) Well the guitar was kinda expected cos I have been bugging him with it (He promised long time ago okay!) but the nasi goreng? No wonder he told me to continue sleeping this morning, he was being busy in the kitchen. awww!

We ate, talked and we sang along to the songs (more like he sang alone!). Pretty romantic, aye? haha. It was so hot at the beach (Jue, its pantai lagenda pekan) and I could not tahan anymore so we're off to his house (of cos I waited outside). He settled few stuff and then we're off to KB. Yap brought me to Cherating (my first time also!) and we had air Nyo. On our way back to KB, we dropped by at the Mesra Mall. Jealous gile kot. I want a mall like this in KB. It was a nice, cosy mall and it has everything. From TMC to bowling to movie to karaoke. Everythings under one roof. jealousyyy is rising. hehe

What I love the most about this road trip is well, we get the chance to talk. Sometimes when he came to KL, we would go to the mall and I would definitely cuci mata. Tengok baju and stuff. Distraction ;p Thus during this roadtrip, I learned a lot more about him. Get to know his friends, get to know his place. And I could tell he was practically nervous driving me back to KB. I know its a bit too early but its not a meeting the parents yet! It was more like he's sending me back home. Plus papa was in kampungku so he only met umi. I would love to bring him to KB again, but not soon.

And my sister, Baby loves him. She was like, Along kalau tak kawen dgn abang Yap, bagi la kat Baby. Baby sukaaaa! oh well, thats my 10 year old sister I'm talking about. We arrived in KB around 9 sth and we dropped at my house. Introduced Yap to my mom :) and asked Baby whether she wants to tag along. Obviously this kiddo said Yes!. Yap wanted to go back on the same day (pujukan 2 hari tak menjadi ;( ) but its okay cos I know he has plenty of work to be done. He was willing to send me back to KB, thats was more than enough. Got his bus tix at Transnasional and we had dinner at the Stadium. Urgh cam takbest je makan kat stadium but since it was quite late and he might missed his bus, so bawak makan dekat2 je. Baby could get along with Yap quite well, its not a suprise. hehe. Yap fulfilled his promise to Baby, he belanja Vitagen. so cute.

10 something pm, time to bid goodbye. I could not even look, or I would get all teary eyed. So me okay. Everytime Yap nak balik camtu lah. Saying goodbye is always the hardest, but I know we will meet again right, love?

So that marks the end of my weekend. Short but wonderful. Isnt it perfect?

what I want to do

next year, 2011: work (full time and part time), to love my job, save money, to be able to make my family happy, to be able to pay for my own bills, survey any opportunities to further my studies and apply whenever I'm ready, grad in Sydney with parents or sistas, CONVOCATION!, to cherish whatever I have and make it last long :)

Next 2 years, 2012: work(full time and part time), save money, save money, SAVE money, get ready to settle down and hopefully I have found the right one by then, to have a vacation with my girls (jue, jaa, amoyy, yann, trah, naimah), to be able to invest for something beneficial.

I know. I'm such a dreamer but who isn't?
Tanpa keberanian, mimpi takkan jadi kenyataan (movie quote)

him :)

we fight, we argue, we get mad, we cool down, we give each other silent treatment, we pokpek, we merajuk but at the end of the day we keep coming back to each other. it is just how we are.

A list

He, who: loves to eat, loves nasi goreng kg, loves adamaya, loves korean stuff, he's honest but not innocent, he loves to tease, he's smoker (quit already since 22nd may 10), he's 184.9 with 67 kg, he's lembut hati kinda person, he's the first boy in his family, he has a sister n a brother n a mum, his father passed away 10 years ago due to accident, he is the family man anyway, he's corny aka mat jiwang haha n loves to use shortform in texting, he doesnt like being angry, he's hot n cold type of person, he is fb addict, he can play guitar or gitat :p, he has cool friends, first song he dedicates, hijau daun - suara ku berharap,sumtimes he calls me sayang n dear or his girl/gadis :), he's too nice with girls stimes, he says it is bcuz girls think he is sombong (hmmph), he's cool, he's my tmi guy, he can be really stubborn at times(?), he loves to tease or perli me kadang2, he likes to mandi kobau hehe, whatever happens, he wants me to know that he loves me so much aww tho he makes me cry stimes, I really like being with him, he's not that expressive, stimes I have to give him hintsss but its okay, first movie - inception, 2nd movie-despicable me, 3rd movie-slice, he has a lovely voice lols, he loves using smileys in his texts hmm dunno why, he plays futsal, follows epl n loves sleeping way too much, I love talking to him, sharing each other stories, he doesnt know this but I think he's a bit manja for his age hehe but I like it stimes, I think he looks superb when he's smiling :) but I dunno why I like to merajuk a lot lately ;( He is my bf since 120710, He is muhammad ashraf ali zubir aka yap aka my love ;))) im so in love and still very much in love with you!

ps: I wrote this as a note in my phone. whenever I found out something new bout him, or it could be just anything, I come back to this note, read it and edit anything necessary. Somehow, this list reminds me why he's the one for me.

9th August 2010 :(

When the tragedy happened
:(
Lodged a police report, claimed insurance, consulted Perodua
The car is still in ICU right now
Should be okay by end of next week
Hopefully.

ps: damn you lorry pasir! haish

life is a breeze atm :)

be glad of life, because it gives you the chance to love and to work and to play and to look up at the stars;
to be satisfied with your possessions;
to despise nothing in the world except falsehood and meanness,
and to fear nothing except cowardice; to be governed by your admirations rather than by your disgusts;
to covert nothing that is your neighbors's except his kindness of heart and gentleness of manners;
to think seldom of your enemies, often of your friends..
and to spend as much time as you can, with body and with spirit.
these are little guideposts on the footpath to peace - henry van dyke

12th July

• marks my father's bday :)

and

• :))

hehehe

thats all